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  • Listening to: Music from Phantom of the Opera
  • Drinking: Tea
As some of you might have noticed, I disappeared over a year ago. I have been submitting stuff every now and then, even commenting, but for the last six months or so... I have been very inactive. I'm not asking for understanding nor pity. 
I just want you to know what happened to me.

I had a burn out on spring 2015. I lost my inspiration. Bad things happened in a never ending loop, throwing me in a middle of shit storm. I couldn't draw, couldn't write. And through drawing and writing, I express my feelings. I was unable to express my feelings, and I eventually I lost my will to live. I wouldn't see my friends, I wouldn't leave my house. I cried for weeks, I only slept and barely ate. I finally got help on August 2015, and I have been in weekly therapy ever since. Without medication, of course, I won't eat any pills. Just talking helps me greatly.

I was still able to work as a substitute teacher, and I love every second of my job. The kids and teens are just wonderful, and almost every day with them is a blessing. My job kept me alive. But I neglected my studies due to the stress they caused me. My master's thesis was too big project, it ate my spirit and all of my creativity. 

At the moment things seem a bit brighter. I have learned that I don't have to be perfect in every possible way, and I don't need to please everybody. My studies are almost over, I have only few things to do. But they don't cause me stress anymore, not as much as they used to.
I feel like I could start drawing again. Maybe I can create something once more, and learn to use my new media tablet.

I want to start fresh, so I'm not commenting all of your works. I'm sorry, but I have to do that. It would be a never ending task. But I go through them, comment on those I like the most and add the pieces I love to my favorites. It's all I can do, and it should be enough.

Yours,
~ Cheetahbird

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Cheetahbird
Sari L.
Artist | Hobbyist | Digital Art
Finland
E-mail: cheetahbird@gmail.com

Fur Affinity: www.furaffinity.net/user/antel…

Zodiac Sign: Taurus
Favorite color: Dark purple
Languages: Finnish (native), English (excellent), Swedish (moderate), Russian (beginner), Spanish (beginner)

My normal fursona is purple-black cheetahbird, but my vicious, evil and cruel fursona is a chinchilla. Yes, a chinchilla. They are small yet fierce creatures. And, of course, undeniably cute.
I am nature-loving escapist. I'm a pagan, who studies comparative religion science in an university somewhere in cold, distant land of Finland. I treat people the way they treat me, so be polite and nice.
Please remember, I love constructive feedback on my work.

And please, do not thank me for llama badges.
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:iconmancunianrain:
MancunianRain Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
"[Russian - beginner]" Привет?)
Oh well... hello, purple beauty, the old friend I've been silent to for almost an eternity, how are you doing, how do you get through, how are your drawing inspiration, how's everything?
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Cheetahbird Featured By Owner Mar 26, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Hi, my dear.
I have been silent as well, I'm sorry about that. My life has been a downward spiral, and I've been in the brink of insanity due to stress and other stuff (that causes more stress). I think I lost my inspiration and I have been unable to create, to write, even to think. 
I'm slowly getting better though, and I have missed this place. I've been visiting here every now and then, but I haven't been able to even look through my friends' new works - and they have been piling up.
I think I should write a journal to explain how things are, in case more people are wondering where I disappeared over a year ago...

Thank you for asking. How have you been? :hug:
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MancunianRain Featured By Owner Mar 27, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Stressful, bitter things are something that's better be let on their own - that's what i've learned over these last months. Not trusting people is better than constantly being let down and betrayed, not thinking about raging wars is easier than killing yourself with sorrows because anyway there is nothing we can do about it. I've been absent here for as long also, and it still saddens me - let's think we'll be back in some time and things will get less dark (empty).
It just seems to demand quite  a bit of power to show up after such a long while, let's say we'll overcome this strange fear and go on with the progress (:
Anyway good to know you're still around. C:
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xX-NIGHTBANEWOLF-Xx Featured By Owner Sep 29, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
*poke* you still here?
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Cheetahbird Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I'm still here, I just don't have any time to draw :(
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xX-NIGHTBANEWOLF-Xx Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
*hugs* I missed you
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Falgor Featured By Owner Jun 2, 2015
Kukkuu...älä nirri mua...se ei näytä hyvältä...tiedän TwT

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Cheetahbird Featured By Owner Jul 13, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Höpsistä, hienohan se on <3
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Nuwer-Designs Featured By Owner May 15, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
happy B-day!
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Cheetahbird Featured By Owner Jul 13, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you! I'm sorry for the late reply :3 
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